In the end, there are friends you keep, and friends you let go, and I will meet someone new tomorrow.
That’s is as frightening as it is comforting. We hold so dear those who come into our lives, and mourn those who pass out of it. The comfort lies in the fact that the love lies in the relationship, which can never leave us. I’ve said before, we will always have that to draw on and learn from.
And yet I find myself at a time in my life when so many of my friends seem to have grown apart, both socially and physically. In my final year at school, many of my friends have left or graduated, and others show less interest in continuing the close relationship we once had.
At home, many of my closest friends have left the city, pursuing lives in other locales.
The social circle tightens, and that, for someone who has made a family from his friends, is frightening.
The realization is that life has brought me to the beginning of distant friends, where at the rare get together someone is always missing, where compatriots play catch up for each other: “Have you heard what ______ is up to?” Gone are the days of summer parties in an empty house, late night get-togethers in college apartments, lazy afternoon hours in dorm rooms, daily romps to the beach and nightly forays into the city.
It is the beginning of the great thinning out, where we become as our parents are, the few close friends that they have scattered, busy with their own lives. I can already begin to see who those friends are … and I love them all the more for it.
I will meet someone new tomorrow, already this semester new friends have come into my journey. But right now, in this moment … I begin to feel the voids.